I have a confession to make.
I’m a recovering information-addict.
For the last year especially, I have battled a lot with my information-intake. You see, communication is one of my major areas of life development.
I’m not going to go all astro on you, but I have Mercury (the planet of communication) in the the third house (Mercury’s hometown) and said Mercury is sitting in Leo (the quintessential storyteller).
So with all of that comes a super strong urge to not only blurt out a whole lot of information, but to devour a whole lot as well!
I have an insatiable appetite and curiosity for information. It is truly an addiction.
I purchased over 600 books on my Kindle alone in the last two years. And that’s not counting all of the other books, ebooks, courses, podcasts and ibooks that I also have.
Heck, a lot of the books that I buy haven’t even been opened!
Last year, I set a goal to read a book a week. That may not sound like a lot to you (or maybe it sounds overwhelming?) but when we’re talking about deep spiritual material, it’s especially a lot. This isn’t a quick read of The Secret that I’m referring to. I’m more of a Man’s Search for Meaning kind of girl.
So when my former coach, Lisa Wechtenhiser, informed me during one of our sessions that my guides were asking me to back off on the information, I was crushed.
It was seriously an end-of-the-world kind of moment for me. I did it, but it was really, really, really hard!
I was all “What do you mean I can’t read!?” And then I spent weeks trying to find other things to do. Trying to find other things to fill the hole.
I had an affair with Netflix… But that just left me feeling even more empty.
And I get it now, it’s all about that hole that I was trying to fill.
I went on an information-fast (which I am still mostly on btw) because all the information I was packing in began to overwhelm my already very-full brain.
The way that Lisa put it was that it was like trying to fill an already full sponge with more water and the new water was just spilling right back out.
To be honest, that’s exactly how I felt too. It was like nothing was sticking, but I wanted to, no, needed to fill myself up with more information.
But for what? Can you see the lesson yet?
It was because I didn’t think of myself as being enough.
I find that when people are jumping from course to course, or book to book, it’s usually the case that they’re trying to fix what they think is broken within them.
For me, the hole was that I never felt like I was smart enough, or knew enough, or was spiritual enough, or intuitive enough. It’s a classic wounded ego, widespread issue that plagues so many of us, this not being enough stuff.
So, I say let’s try a different approach and ask a better question: Where’s the hole that you’re trying to fill?
Instead of treating the symptom, (that’s what you’re doing when you chase after all those shiny objects) let’s treat the problem, the root cause of the situation.
Let’s find the hole and fill that, then you won’t have to run around fruitlessly trying to fill a bottomless pit anymore.
And let me know how it goes! I’d love to hear from you.